The Unexpected One

Being alone in a foreign land makes my heart uneasy for the things and decisions I am making. People around me thinks that I am a happy person but the truth is I am a lost soul on my own universe.

Lost in my own thoughts, lost in my own words. Being dependent  to those people whom I used to trust and love. But being dragged down to the lost world underneath is a biggest heartache a man could imagine.

People come and go. Changes to old and new. The throwback and the future.  Hurting someone, loving a new one. Sacrificing and mourning. Forever and infinite. How could a person survive this cruel world?

Being the so called pretty boy, is what the gossips are. But talking with him, He is an ordinary guy who got hurt, broken but smiling in the end of it. Seeking for the attention of the one he loves, but being hurt by a single line. I’m not able to see him cry but hearing his cracking voice, I knew from the start he was hurt.

Unexpectedly, that person become my companion.  My friend, my enemy, and my guilty pleasure. Owning what is not yours is a mortal sins of being a human being. Existing in a seductive and flirtatious world, this sin is a no, no.  But why do I keep doing it?  Just  because someone doesn’t love you the way you want to doesn’t mean they don’t love you the best way they know how.

You are part of puzzle in someones life. You may never know where you fit. But, someones life may never be complete without you in it. It is tough when someone special starts to ignore you; it’s even tougher to pretend that you don’t mind.  Accepting someone into your heart is easy, the real problem is taking them out.

The hardest lesson in life is probably learning to let go of the things or people that you wanted the most because you can’t have it. If you tell the truth, it becomes a part of your past. If you lie, it becomes part of your future. People seldom find love when they’re looking for it. It usually happens when they never see it coming.

One thing I realized in life; never be dependent to anyone in this world, because even your shadow leaves you when darkness comes. Even if I have tears down my face, I still manage to say those two words. I’M FINE.